It’s the beginning of April and I’m back. What do I mean? Well I have finally stepped out of the Yoga bubble I seem to have found myself stuck in for the last 12 weeks and hit reality once again. I find myself sitting on a plane travelling back from Lisbon, a new born baby crying behind me and a glass of cheap red wine carefully balanced on my fold away table along with my laptop. Elbows tucked in so as not to invade my neighbour’s space.
I do like to write a blog when I’m travelling because I have time to think, time to be and time to reflect on work, life and just general ‘stuff’. (Ok I have a two hour flight and no inflight entertainment to keep me engaged).
Life after Yoga Teacher Training
On Sunday I completed my Yoga teacher training. Yep, I am now a fully- fledged yoga teacher. Another skill to add to my tool kit. If I am honest, it was one of the most challenging ‘self-development’ choices I think I have made. It has had an impact on everything in my world and the moment I heard the words ‘You’ve passed’ the elation and utter relief was instantaneous.
Today as I facilitated a programme on Excellence with a fabulous team of individuals, I released that for the first time in over three months, I felt a sense of calm, and a sense of confidence in my ability. When you start something new, and become a student of learning again, it can feel daunting to say the least. I know that I have continued to question myself, to doubt myself and ask the question time and time again ‘Why on earth am I doing this?!’
I watched a video clip today of a penguin who didn’t want to jump into the water. I found myself sat there willing him to jump. It really resonated with me (not that I am a penguin, but the metaphor itself is a powerful one) The courage it takes to do something you’ve never done before can be incredibly empowering and ultimately terrifying!
What is it that you have never done that you want to do? Maybe it’s been a lifelong mission to complete something that you feel passionate about. I know for me the idea of becoming a Yoga Teacher had been contemplated at various points in my life for about 15 years.
Feel the fear and do it anyway
Sometimes, just sometimes you have to ‘feel the fear and do it anyway’. The feeling of accomplishment, of ‘shit I just did that!’ and of ‘I really did do that’ is all encompassing. It feels strange to have my life back, to know that on Sunday instead of the alarm going off at 6am for me to drive to North London for my Yoga training, I can in fact STAY IN BED! Not that I will (a lie in for me is 8am if I am lucky). It’s the fact that I CAN without any overriding panic that an essay needs to be completed or I need to get on my mat and practice.
So where to from here? Why did I complete my Yoga Teacher Training? Well that’s a blog in itself….I wanted to do it to know that I could, I wanted to do it because Yoga is such a big part of my life that learning more and practicing deeper can only be a positive. Where to from here? I have ideas bubbling, opportunities presenting themselves and the unknown just in front of me. How lucky am I?